graduation

haha.. s0oo0o0brang late na post.. pano kasi, sobrang i was not in the mood to make a nice post nung graduation day itself.. i mean.. haha.. "ngayon".. tas a few days later, malalaman ko na walang sense lahat ng pagkalungkot ko "today" kasi makikita ko rin naman siya pala ulet.. pero weird enough, di ko pa rin naman nasabi sa kanya yung mga kelangan nya malaman eh pero wala lang yun saken ngayon.. like it's all fine na.. whatever happens.. haha.. a step to moving on na naman? baka..

haha.. oh well.. basta ayun.. umiiyak ako nito eh, tas parang akala ng parents ko dahil alng nalulungkot ako dahil aalis na ko sa pisay and magkakahiwal;ay na kami ng friends ko pero hindi eh.. kasi isa lang naman talaga yng iniyakan ko.. hahahaha.. :p stupid stupid me.. haha..

TO YOU MY FAIR MESSENGER..

i don't know... i am supposed to be celebrating this day.. we finally, after four long years, grduated from high school.. yet, a bigger part of me feels sad.. when wil i see you again? i hope soon.. soon enough to save me form the regrets of not even being able to say goodbye.. but God knows i tried.. i know He saw me when i went back to look for you, to steal just a glance before we part.. i even made an excuse of needing to give somthing back to Leo just to have a few minutes to stay and look for you.. ( well, my excuse was partly tru naman coz i really needed to give something back to leo but i was blindly looking for him coz i was thinking about you.. >.<) i went back.. i looked for you! but you were not there.. to make matters more unbearable for a cry baby like me, one of the songs that really reminds me of you was playing.. i lost myself in thoughts of how i began to lvoe you.. and you know what? it really hurts to have a lot of memories to recall and knowing too that they will never happen again.. i was alone.. i looked around and saw a lo of people yet the one that i ws looking for was not around.. then i just found myself sobbing like a little girl.. tears welled up in my eyes.. adrop or two rolled down my cheeks before i was able to pull myself back together and head on to where my parents were waiting.. then i saw Leo, i gave him something and then asked if he saw you.. he said you're at the dorm.. then i began to cry.. i told him im scared i might not see you again. he told me to go talk to you. i said i don't wantto.. not because i really on't want to but maybe because i'm scared.. and so i can't.. i told him to tell you to take care and that im gonna miss you a lot.. then i said "basta.. sabihin mo sa kanya lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.." haha.. and tears came pouring out again.. "puntahan mo na kasi.. pero cge, take care dear.. i will tel him.." and after that, i took na the steps that took me away.. away form pisay.. away from you.......

FAIR MESSENGER, i hope i see you again.. loving you when you already love someone else is one thing, a thing that through time, i have learned to accept ad understand but loving you so much and letting you walk away without even sying something like "bye" when i had the chance is something else.. i hope i didn't make the biggest mistake of my life when i walked away, leaving the chances of letting you know how much i love you behind.. >.<

can we still be friends..?

We can't play this game anymore butCan we still be friends?Things just can't go on like before butCan we still be friends?We had something to learnNow it's time for the wheel to turnGrains of sand, one by oneBefore you know it, all goneLet's admit we made a mistake butCan we still be friends?Heartbreak's never easy to take butCan we still be friends?It's a strange, sad affairSometimes seems like we just don't careDon't waste time feeling hurtWe've been through hell togetherCan we still be friends?Can we still get together sometimes?Can we still be friends?You know that life will still go onWe awoke from our dreamThings are not always what they seemMemories linger onIt's like a sweet, sad, old songCan we still be friends?Can we still get together sometimes?Can we still be friends?You know that life will still go onCan we still be friends?Can we still get together sometimes?Can we still be friends?You know that life will still go on.........................

-ayan.. singgulo ng buhay.. =p

hehe.. write up ni olin for me.. haha.. ginamit sa yearbook.. haha. preview.. =p

As she passes by the corridor, laughing with her companions, you’d think Ivy is just an ordinary batch mate. You’ve never been more wrong.Ivy is truly a girly girl. One who loves the color pink, accessorizes and pretty skirts, she is a certified fashionista. A member of the 06 pep squad and theater arts, she certainly enjoys singing, dancing and acting. She even modeled for her sophomore year’s fashion show. But this lass is not all prim and proper. She is not afraid to be goofy and (take note) eat a lot! She is also known for a particular misdeed she has done in her first year in Pisay. This even included a completely made up character brought to life and her diary. Can’t relate? Just ask any of our batch mates.

But aside these things, Ivy’ friends appreciate her for her optimism and cheerfulness. These are the reasons why it’s so fun to have her around. It’s not hard to make her laugh either, because simple things brighten up her day. She and her friends often stay late in school but there is never a dull moment. She’ll never back down from a gimmick or party either. Even to those who are not close to her yet, they’ll find her approachable and friendly at first glance. Just approach her and she’ll quickly flash you a welcoming smile. No doubt, anywhere this girl goes, she’ll certainly dazzle people with her kikay but kalog personality.

-hahaha.. so0o00o0o0o0o00o0o0 me..! hahaha..

horoscope..

You've got all the moral (and celestial) support you could ever have hoped for. The circumstances are absolutely right for your success. This is the right time to take a leap or make a commitment.

-wahaha.. wala akong masabi jan.. haha.. =p

horoscope.. nyahahaha..

Your fortitude in a challenging situation wins friends and influences people -- and your old friends learn to love you even more than they already do. In fact, your considerable courage also wins you the attentions of a secret admirer.



-para ngayon.. wala na talaga ako magawa. . pati horoscope ko pinopost ko na.. hahahahaha..

goodbye to you..

Of all the things
I've believed in
I just want to
Get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days
That pass me by
I've been searching
Deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing
Are starting to get old
It feels likeI'm starting all over again
The last three years
Were just pretend
And I said

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything
I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that
I tried to hold on to

I used to get lost in your eyes
And it seems that
I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and
You chase my thoughts away
To a place whereI am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything
I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing thatI tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything
And nothing at the same time
I want what's yours
And I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything
I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing thatI tried to hold on to
The one thing thatI tried to hold on to
And when the stars fallI will lie awake
You're my shooting star

-hay.. pinapakinggan ko ng paulit ulit.. paulit ulit.. sana hindi ganito.. sana hindi.. sana.. >.<>.< pero ganun eh..

"so ano na nga ba talaga?"

nyar.. walang koneksyon yung title sa post a to.. kasi yung title ay naalala ko lang.. sinabi yan saken ng isang tao dati.. pero ang post na to ay tungkol sa araw na to na walang katuturan.. dahil boring talaga.. nagbabasa lang ako all day and pinagalitan ako because i was not trying to be useful... hay nako.. wala na.. hindi na talaga productive nag buhay ko.. haha..

haha.. wala na..

nyahaha

it's quite an irony that while i am desperately struggling to forget you, i get a wound that will most likely leave a scar while looking for a poem that reminds me of you...

and just like you, this wound gives me a lot of pain.. and just as you left a scar on my heart,this wound will also leave a mark on me that will always remind me of how i once loved, got hurt, and vainly tried to get over you... >.<

I never asked for this feeling
I never thought I would fall
I never knew how I felt
Till the day you were gone
I was lost
I never asked for red roses
I wasn't looking for love
Somehow I let my emotions take hold
And guess what all at once
I'm in love

Oh I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cuz my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?

Why did I act like you mattered
It was silly of me to believe
That if I just opened my heart
Things would come naturally
Jokes on me
I did not ask for love letters
So why did you give them to me
How could I let your intentions
Get hold over me
So in love
So naive

And oh how I hate what you have done
Made me fall so deep in love
Got no cure
You're the only one I want
That I love oh baby

Baby why aren't you missing me?
Baby why aren't you missing me?

-para kay edward santos.. nyahaha.. why aren't you missing me? nyah.. hehe.. aayn na.. ayan yung lyrics.. wahaha.. galing mo talaga... chura.. haha.. fine fine ted.. haha.. nice.. tamang tama naman ako.. haha.. =p

everywhere!!!!

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are

'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone...


And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone
I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

-ayan.. everywhere.. para sa mg baliw na walng ibang nakikita kundi yung mga mahal nila.. nyeh.. ang corny.. haha.. =p

everywhere..

ayan.. eh kasi dumaan kaming sm kanina after school.. tas ayun.. milko.. na lagi naming binibili nila meeko, elise at randell dati.. hay.. miss ko na.. tas ayun.. natripan nila mag dance maniax kaso sa wof kami kasi hard core na yung mga nasa synergy.. tas ayun.. locomotion.. naalala ko na naman siya.. amf talaga.. tas after.. kumain kami.. tas dun kami sa chef donatello.. eh katabi lang halos yun ng greenwich.. tas naalala ko na naman.. kumakain kasi kami dun dati eh.. bago tumuloy sa overnights.. pag ginagabi sa quantum. tas mga memories ng mga nangyari dun.. bigla ko naalala yung sinulat niya.. na sobrag totoo na.. haha.. tas ayun.. yung arrangements.. yung mga pinaguusapan.. mga tao.. mga tao.. mga tao.. siya.. siya.. siya.. siya.. siya.. tas ayun.. nagpunta kaming department store.. tas may nadaanan kaming shirts.. tas bigla ko na lang nasabi na eto yung gusto niyang shirt oh.. tas tinuro ko.. tas bigla naalala ko rin yung nung may pinahulaan siya tas ang galing kasi yung hula ko nga yung binili niya.. tas wala lang.. nakakamiss talaga.. tas pag labas.. napadaan kami sa dunkin donuts.. tas naalala ko si jam mahilig bumili du dati.. miss ko na sila.. tas ayun.. kanta daw kami.. so punta kaming synergy.. andami memories.. kumanta kami ng hmm. unang song.. everywhere.. tas sobrang nag-aaplly kasi lagi ko siyang naaalala sa buong sm.. hay.. tas sunod ewan na.. basta kumanta ng power of two, ligaya (na may naalala ako ulet at may parang sinasabi ako nito nung biglang lumabas sa screen friend of mine next song) haha.. kakatawa yun.. eh pataasan kami ng score.. si camille sa everywhere eh. (93). ako sa friend of mine (98) tas si leo we belong together (96).. haha.. panalo ako.. siyempre song ko yun eh!! haha.. joke.. tas bili kaming healthie.. tas nagiisip ako ng flavor.. tas sabi nila melon na lang daw.. hay.. may naalala na naman ako.. sinabi niya rin kasi yun once eh.. pero binili ko ube macapuno.. haha. hindi masarap.. sana oreo na lang.. sabi ko na eh.. kaya ayoko mag try ng bago.. haha.. tas punta kaming quantum.. madaming quesci.. tas nagtingin kami ng mga tao.. hay.. tas nakakatawa yung dance maniax.. namiss ko ata.. haha.. kakatuwa.. ayun.. wala lang.. tas pag uw, jeep papuntang philcoa.. tas pagsaay.. naalala na naman siya. lalo na pagdaan sa pisay.. hay nako.. everywhere talaga.. tas ayn.. pagdating ko sa bahay naalala ko may tula pala akong ginawa nung 3rd year for pinoy na tungkol sa ganyan.. yung parang lagi mo siya nakikita.. tas sa paghahanap ko.. nasugat yung left foot ko.. masakit.. tumama kasi sa edge nung something dun.. eh di ko kasi binuksan yung lights.. haha.. ayun.. masakit.. kaya yun stat ko.. stat na double meaning.. nyashaha.. bye na nga.. -end-








~ivy.hot~

melancholy.. yah yah..

hay nako.. eto..online ako.. tas andami ko naiiisip kanina.. ngayon. wala na laman utak ko.. hay.. nakatinging lang ako sa onitor.. wala.. just staring at it. walang sense..

andami kong gustong sabihin.. andami kong problema. andami kong kailangan isipin.. nakakainis.. nakakasawa.. hay.. parang pag ganitong times.. gusto ko mawala.. siguro ganito nararamdaman ng mga tao bago sila nagpapakamatay.. pero wag kayo mag-alala.. di pa ko ganun katapang para sa isang suicide attempt.. haha..

nagrecollection nga pala yung batch kahapon.. hehe..a ng cute ni father.. andami nyang jokes.. haha.. tas ayun.. kinakabahan talaga ako nung papunta palang ako ng school.. eh kasi makikita ko na siya after forever.. haha.. eh sabi ko over na ko.. tas hanggang kahapon, naniwala ako sa idea na yun.. na over na ko.. naisip ko nung nakita ko siya na wala na talaga.. tas sinabi ko pa sa limang trusted friends yun.. na wala na talaga.. pero wala namang sense kasi sabi nila lahat hindi sila naniniwala.. haha..tas nakatunganga na naman ako.. ansaket saket pa naman ng ulo ko ngayon.. haha...

tas ayun.. kanina, nung practice para sa grad song.. nrealize ko.. antanga ko talaga.. i mean.. haha.. lagi ko naman sinasabi yun pero di ko naman talaga feel na tanga ko di ba? haha. .=p pero ngayon kasi. haha.. nas0brahan ata ako sa kakasabi.. ngakatotoo tuloy.haha.. kasi sinasabi ko over na k.. so baka nga oo.. tas narealize ko, umaasa pa pala ako na babalik din sa dati yung friendship namin.. eh mukaha namang walang nangyayari.. i mean wala talaga.. parang we're ever distant now than before.. di nga kai maxado naguusap eh.. so malungkot di ba? so ayun.. bigla k na lang naisip.. na sabihin na alng sa kanya.. or wag na gumawa ng efforts na itago pa. na hayaan ko nang malaman niya.. kasi kaya ko alng naman hindi inaamin kasi maka masira ung friendship namin eh.. eh parang ganun na rin yung nagyayari.. bawat aarw na nagdadaan parang palayo na siya ng palayo.. paliit ng paliit yung halaga ko sa mundo niya. so sumagi na lang sa isip ko na malaman niya na sana para wala na akong tinatago.. para wala akong pag sisihan pag nagkahiwalay na kami.. kasi sobrang ako yung tao na aaw magsisi sa mga bagay na may chance akong gawin tas hindi ko ginawa.. at risk yung friendship. oo.. pero kung iisipin talaga, sana noon ko pa narealize na maaapektuhan talaga yung friendship.. bago ko hinayaan na puso ko na lang yung magpasya sa kung ano nga yung mararamdaman ko sa kanya.. tas wala lang.. iyak lang minsan kasi parang ang layo layo na talaga namin sa isat isa.. haha.. tas ang weird na pag magkasama kami kasi hindi na kami naguusap.. tas minsan pa ang sama nya na saken.. parang minsan feeling ko ayaw na niya ako around.. well.. sabi nila paranoid lang daw ak.. pero feleing ko talaga ganun eh.. di naan kais siya ganito saken dati eh.. ang lungkot lungkot lang.. siguro nga pag nagkaroon ng chance hahayaan ko na lang na malaman na niya.. haha..tutal naman sabi nila obvious naman daw eh.. bahala na..

shwing!!! --> tunog ng ym..

Revisit your future goals. Are they still relevant? Do they address what's currently important to you? It might be time to renew a commitment to an old plan -- or to make a fresh start. It'll all be clear very soon.

-hmm. ano kaya to? haha.. FRESH START!! hmm..college? haha.. whatever it is... ayus na! go go go!!! ^_^


~ivy.hot~

good day..

gusto ko yung kanta ng click five na good day..

*you're looking for something you cant find.. if you give it up you'll lose your mind.. there's always something in your way.. oh what can you say...? you're gonna have a good day..*

haha.. sobrang paulituli kong pinapakinggan.. haha.. tas kanina ko pa kinakanta yung i will.. yung first two stanzas.. ay bago ako matulog kagabi.. narinig ko cry.. tas di ako makatulog kasi kumakanta ko habang nakahiga..

paranoia.. argh..

nakakatakot.. nyahahaha..

bukas na.. recollection.. once again since.. uh.. forever?.. i will be seeing him again.. natatakot ako.. well.. kasi feeling ko.. i'm over it na..over him.. tas baka pag nakita ko siya.. mawalan ng sense lahat ng efforts kong makalimot.. nyahahha.. without him around mahirap na nga eh.. kung anjan pa kaya siya ulet......... haaaaaaaay..

oh well..

ay eto horoscope ko fo today:

*Celestial energies put a little pizzazz in your pace, and you'll find that this extra burst of energy helps you resolve an old issue that's been plaguing you far more than it should. And it's about high time! *

-waah.. anong old issue kayo yon? waah.. baka yun.. waah.. i dont wanna face it.. amf.. waaaah..

hmm.. natatakot na ko..a y paranoid na naman.. hahaha.. baka yung going to Ek issue lang yun.. hahaha.. tama tama!!!
pero wait! anong extra energy???? aang boring boring nga ng mundo eh!! hinang hina na ko.. dahil nakakatamad dahil nakakabagot.. pero lagi ako asa scho0l.. nyaha.. kahit mejo bawal. slight lang naman.. haha..

oh well.. im not making any sense na.. bye bye..

*buti pa xa may "miss na kita.." haha.. im such a fool..*

~ivy.hot~

i will..

Who knows how long I've loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to I will.

For if I ever saw you
I didn't catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we're together
Love you when we're apart

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
You know I will.
I will.

-wala lang.. a very very sweet song.. nakakaiyak kantahin.. hahaha.. ang sweet and simple and innocent eh.. parang ang pure.. hahaha.. wala lang.. astig na kanta.. para sa aking natatanging true love.. ^_^ at hehe... para na rin sa true love niya.. at sa true love ng true love nun.. at sa true love ng true love nun.. at sa true love ng true love ng true love nun.. nyar.. hehe.. labo na.. haha.. ^_^

ouch

tae... iiyak na talaga ako.. huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu........ waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................... so0oo000o00000000000000000000000ooooooooooooooo0000obrang depressed na ko..

bkt ba kasi hindi ako pinapayagan?????????? iiyak na naman ako..

ang lungkot talaga!!!!!!!!!!!

cry cry.. huhuhu..

hay.. nakakaasar talaga.. hindi ako pinayagan.. how selfish can they be? bkt ayaw nila ako payagan? haaay..

haha. may kausap ako sa ym kanina na friend ko.. tas may part sa usapan na ito:

keiko: ok lng yan
keiko: bt kasi mnahal mo?!
ivy: haha.. oo naman
keiko: my mhal plang iba
ivy: oo nga eh
ivy: haha.. i was so stupid.
.keiko: nu bayan..
ivy: hehe..

ayan.. tas kunyari ok lang.. pero tamang tama ako.. haha.. tas kanina nakita nyo ba ang aking stat? lagi ko kasing naaalala na may taong nagsabi saken dati na pag nakikita niya kami,,, ayun.. parang nanonood daw siya ng isang romantic comedy.. tipong cheesy movie.. nakakatuwa daw kami.. haha..

tas ngayon narealize ko.. naniwala ako sa thought na yun.. i lived in a dream pala.. ewan.. kasi kung iisipin ko ngayon, akala ko din i was in a romantic comedy.. until time made me realize i was wrong.. coz romantic comedies always end in happy endings.. yun yung pinagkaiba namin sa isang pelikula.. dahil yung happy ending.. yun yung wala.. =(

horoscope.. nyahaha..

eto super funny.. =p

A past friendship or relationship that fizzled actually could reincarnate as a business relationship. You might just find that whatever it was that didn't have you two working on a personal level makes you great work partners.

-hahaha..

waah

huhuhuhuhu.. iyak na talaga ako.. di pa ko nagpapaalam for thursday.. pag di ako pinayagan magpapakamatay ako.. hahahaha.. joke! as if kaya.. haha.. takot ko lang.. hahahaha..

pero gusto ko talga sumama.. as in so0o0o0o0brang gusto ko..!!!

horoscope ko naman today..

You're more assertive than usual and super focused on getting your way. Your success is absolutely guaranteed, as long as you're careful not to step on anyone's toes or profit at their expense.

-nyahaha.. wish.. >.<





~ivy.hot~

haha.. horoscope ko for the day..

Hearts go pitter-pat whenever you walk by, so make sure you're out there strutting your stuff. Your charm is unusually potent right now, and you can get whatever you want just by batting your eyelashes.


-hahaha.. funny!!!




~ivy.hot~

hmmp!!!

waah.. ala lang.. nakakaasar lang kasi ang sama niya..

well.. i was at UP kasi kanina.. nagpass ako ng requirements for STFAP dun sa vinzons hall.. ayun, nung tapos na, i went na down stairs.. tas dun sa landing bago yung ground floor, may dalaqng girls na nakatayo.. hmm.. so wala lang.. dumaan na ko.. tas pagdaan ko, napansin kong 05 people pala sila.. pero i didn't see them look at me naman so i didn't greet them.. tas bigla na lang, nung nakababa na ko ng stairs.. humirit yung isa ng "banned ang oo0o0o0o0o0o0wsiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiix" in this very mocking tone.. tas lumingon ako and she was smiling.. tipong tumawa silang dalawa.. hmmpp..! f na f niya.. ansama sama.. pero ayun, sabi ko "uh, hindi po.." tas umalis na ko.. well mag-isa kasi ako.. kung may kasama siguro ako kanina hindi siya hihirit ng ganun.. ansama niya.. buti pa sila ate hannah, nangumusta pa.. huh..

sino yung mabait na yun? uh, she's this fat 05 girl, very fat actually (kung sa standards ko).. dark.. pimples, and messy hair.. hmm.. tipong parang hindi marunong mag ayos.. waah.. ansama ko.. i really don't want to be too honest with the decriptions pero kasi nairita talaga ako kanina.. hahahaha.. ansama ko na..!

well.. ayun.. dapat naman kasi, since pisay rin siya dapat di siya natutuwa na may nababan sa pisay.. ang ewan eh.. and besides, di naman talaga tayo banned kasi pwede naman pumasok ng school basta nakauniform ka.. hmm.. so ayun.. >.<

ewan

shit.. ahhhhhhhhhh.. im really really............................ waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.. i dunno.. hahahhahahaha..


nyak.. nababaliw na ko.. argsh.. parang gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na hindi eh.. well kasi parang alam nya na rin naman.. tas hayy nako.. never mind.. wag na nga lang..

naalala ko, pag nalaman pala nya, magiging complicated ang mga bagay bagay tas ayun.. wala naman magbabago for the better.. so WALANG SENSE!!! haha..

ayun.. pasensya!!! naaasar na ko sa sarili ko.. im so.. argsh.. hot.. nyeh.. haha.. deh. cge na nga.. bye bye na.. end end.. haaha =p





~ivy.hot~

hmm.. ayan.. hahahahaha.. andaya talaga.. hahahaha.. ang hirap talaga kasi eh.. yung mahal na mahal mo yung isang tao tas hindi mo talaga masabi sa kanya.. kasi pag sinabi mo, mawawala na siya.. haha.. kaya wag na lang di ba? labo.. ahahhahahaha.. eh basta.. weird..

hmm.. bakit ba kasi kita minhal.. dapat talaga hindi na lang eh.. hahaha.. ay alam mo ba, ginawa kita ng testi dati eh.. hahaha.. pero di ko pinost .. kasi.. siyempre.. duh.. haha..

--joke.. haha.. binura ko na--

haha.. joke.. narealize ko.. di ko pala talaga pwede ipost yung ginawa kong 'testi' na yun kasi haha.. sobrang obvious nya kahit edited na.. haha.. ah basta.. well.. sana narerealize mo na mahal na mahal kita so ingat ka lagi.. tas dapat lagi kang masaya. wag mo papabayaan sarili mo.. sana din marealize mong sobrang important ka.. at kahit di mo pwedeng malaman.. ayus lang.. wish wish wish lang.. sana wala talagang magbago..haha.. tas alam mo, winiwish ko pa rin na sana dumating yung time na ayus lang malaman mo tas parang wala lang.. normal pa rin.. haha..

sorry kung ginagawa o to.. wala lang.. weird kasi yung thought na hindi mo alam pero alam mo.. tas ayoko malaman mo na gusto ko.. haha.. anlabo ko talaga..

sa mga makakabasa.. hmm.. wag nyo na alng tong pansinin.. kunyari d nageexist ang post na to.. and please intindihin nyo na lang.. feeling ko kasi i ought to do this.. pero feeling o rin hindi.. so ayun.. malabo talaga.. sorry..

the effects of missing you.. haha.. sorry..

here i go again.. in my lonely den.. crying my heart out over things that my tears absolutely won't change..

i am so sad.. yah.. sad.. well.. what it is i'm depressed about is not a question.. actually, every one knows it's all about him and a thing called love.. nyahaha..

You like someone and there's totally a lot of ways for you to reach him.. Everyone keeps egging you on, saying you look good together and yah yah, you are meant to be.. right! >.<

all these pains becauseof the "most wonderful feeling in the world".. caused by love.. crap..

i used to believe in destiny.. serendipity.. true love.. whatever you call it.. now, i just find myself doubting the things i formerly believed in.. yes.. we love.. we wish everything to be perfect.. we want everything to get right.. and when i love someone.. i always promise myself that i'll do everything for that special person.. that sometimes.. i really really forget to keep at least a bit of my heart for myself..

But the thing is, it's so hard to keep everything in place, hard to make things perfect.. it's hard to keep things go as you want them to.. in ways that would bring you happiness and contentment.. you want things to get well but they seldom do..

I used to believe in the chemistry between two people.. the way they look at each other, the things they talk about, the way they do stuff together, their interests, the places they both go to, the coincidences they get involved with.. But now... >.<

What are the chances that i'll meet that "right" person..? out of all the throngs of people in the world.. what are the chances that i'll notice him if now i believe i love another person.. or what are the chances that the person i am loving now is the one for me? no, i don't think so.. things are just so complicated.. now he's there and he's within my reach.. then tomorrow i'll find him gone.. and all that's left with me are the happiest yet forever bothering memories of what love has caused.. hmm.. love is so complicated.. it really gives a lot of pains.. it comes when it's not expected.. it goes through you.. make you happy, make you cheerful, optimistic, bright, gay, fulfilled, content, delightful, vulnerable, then dejected, despirited, desolate, rueful, lugubrious, miserable..

is it really love? or is it us? is it the people around? or maybe it's just a matter of CHANGE.. coz yah.. people change all the time, and before you know it, the person you loved is gone The person you LOVE will go AWAY one way or the other.. yah.. he will go away.... >.<

if love can hurt this much..

*Why bother playing the game then? You always lose anyway.. the simple reason is that it FEELS SO GOOD TO FALL IN LOVE.. even if you know you'll be HURT,it will always be WORTH the try.. - mr. jeff abrenica*

wala lang..

hmm.. plagiarism again? haha.. sorry.. di ko alam kung ayos lang sabihin na ikaw gumawa nyan eh.. edit ko na lang tong post if evr..

kahit anong gawin kong paglimot sa iyo, kung ndi galing sa puso, wala ring kwenta.. kaw din dba?? khit anong gwin mong pagkalimot sa knya, wala, kc ndi galing sa puso.. galing sa isip.. kya mahirap.. ubod ng hirap... kc mahal mo siya.. ganun din ako, mahal din kita..


-ayan.. wala lang.. nakakarealte kasi ako.. hmm.. haha..

waiting in vain..

amf.. antagal na.. hmm.. hay.. so0o0o0obra.. tas im waiting pa rin..

haha..

bakit wala ka? >_<

FRIENDS..

wahaha.. astig. wala lang.. i've been constantly receiving testimonials on friendster from my friends.. and wala lang.. they've all been so.. soooo.. wahaha.. heart warming and all.. nyahaha.. everything that's nice and sweet and funny and happy and wonderful!!! hahahaha..

i'm so lucky i have friends like you guys.. very lucky indeed!!! hehe.. and really.. words can never ever express how much i love you guys and how much you matter and how important you are and how much i miss you now and how much i love you.. nyahahaha.. and maraming how-much-es.. haha..

ah basta.. love you guys.. and so0o0o0o0o0brang thanks!!! weee.. hehe.. friends for life ah? ^_^

elating and non-elating matters... nyahaha..

hmm.. ayan.. so mejo nawala ang bahid ng boredom sa mundo naming pito kanina.. ako, elise, meeko, ted, von, noel at randell.. hehe. lumabas kasi kami.. tas nanood kami ng THE DARK!!!! ang freaky talaga nung eyes nung "the sheperd" amf.. waaah.. natatakot tuloy ako sa madilim.. feeling ko lalabas siya or yung daughter nya bigla... natataot tuloy ako matulog.. eh pupunta pa ako ng school bukas.. waah.. darn..

hmmp.. naiinis ako sa isang tao.. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. nakakainis talaga.. anyway..

ayun.. e di masaya kasi bonding kami kanina.. watched a movie tas synergy.. ayan.. medyo depressing na kasi yung as*hole na yun eh.. sasapakin ko talaga yun.. haha.. kung kaya ko lang manakit ng tao.. gagawin ko talaga.. >_<

ALAM NYO BA? may 83 percent possibility na ako'y mapabilang sa clergy. hahaha.. magmamadre na nga lang talaga ako.. lam nyo kung baket? kasi never nyang malalaman na maha ko siya.. since never nyang malalaman, eh di wala na.. magmamadre na nga ako dapat.. hehe.. ayun.. naalala ko lang kasi eh.. pangarap ko naman yun nung bata ako.. hahaa. when i was young.. hahahahaha..

miss na miss na kita!!! haha.. antanga ko talaga eh noh? haha..


~ivy.hot~

dahlia..

hmm.. ayan!! dahlia thing kanina sa gateway.. hahaha.. sayang konti lang kami.. pero ayus lang.. bonding pa rin.. ako, elise, sam, gigil, cha, clar,ron, josef at jp!!! hehehe.. kami ni josef sabay pumunta sa mcdo quezon ave tas mineet namin si ron dun.. tas hinintay namin yung iba sa foodcourt ng gateway.. tas dumating si elise.. then si jp.. tas si sam then cha.. tas si clar.. at si gigil!!! ayan.. nanood kami ng last holiday tas sobrang iniisip ko yun ngayon.. haha.. tas nagpapic.. ang kyut nung barney pic!! hahhaha.. tas ang galing.. connected na naman kami ni elise.. haha.. ang galing.. haha.. sa pics makikita kung baket.. ang galing talaga..hmm..

ayan.. eto na.. nanood kami ng last holiday... tas parang ayun.. haha.. naisip ko lang.. na dapat habang buhay pa ko.. gawin ko na lahat ng gusto kong gawin.. kasi yun yung sinasabi nung movie eh.. kaso yung gustong gusto kong gawin ngayon ay sabihin sa kanya kung gano sya ka-important.. well.. buti na lang hindi ko ginawa kasi kung ginawa ko yun. nawala na siya forever saken.. hmm... pero sana someday masabi ko rin.. sana dumating yung time na kahit sabihin ko, kahit malaman nya, ayus lang.. walang magbabago.. friends pa rin kami.. haaaaaay.. hahahaha.. napaka complicated ng buhay..

haaaaaaay.. ah basta.. dapat talaga di nako namomroblema.. kasi life is short.. nyahaha.. kaya dapt laging masaya.. haha.. ayun.. hahahahahaha.. so simula ngayon.. masaya na ko! ^_^ yey!!!!

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU..

i hate it when you lie
it makes me really sad
but i hate it more when you smile
coz your smile drives me mad..

i hate it when you brag about
the many things that you can do
but i hate it more when you do them
coz i can't help but adore you..

i hate it when you're distant
coz i really miss you so
but i hate it more when you're near me
coz i dont wanna let you go

i hate it when you're mean
coz you really make me cry
but i hate it more when i can't forget you
no matter how hard i try..

i hate it when i fell for you
and knew you won't catch me on my fall
i hate the fact that i hate these things
BUT I DON'T HATE YOU.. NOT AT ALL.. >_<

-ayun..

wee..

lalala.. magaan na pakiramdam ko.. hehehe.. salamat po!! ^_^

haha

bakt gaun.. minsan may mga bagay kang gustong gusto mo nang sabihin sa tao tas hindi mo masabi kasi natatakot ka pero di mo alam kung san ka natatakot.. haha..

hmm.. ewan ko ba saken.. nakakaasar ako!!!!



ahm.. yung mga malungkot jan, lighten up!!! haha.. mas malungkot ako noh.. nyahahahahhaha.. kya wag na kayo mag emote.. hehe..

naisip ko lang.. kasi.. di naman talga natin pwedeng iblame yungmga taong mahal natin kung nagpapakatanga sila sa mga mahal din nila.. kasi tayo rin naman eh.. nagpapakatanga rin tayo sa kanila.. so pareho lang.. >_<

haha.. wala lang.. bigla ko lang naisip.. haha..

emosyon

hmm.. ewan.. so0o0o0o00o0o0o0o00brang malungkot lang ako ngayon.. tas ayun.. malungkot..


nakakainis na kasi ako eh.. haha.. lagi na lang akong malungkot.. nyahaha..

maxado na kasi kitang mahal.. hahahahaha.. ayan tuloy.. antanga tanga ko na..

haha.. wag nyo na lang pansinin.. haha.. >_<

what could have been..

Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been...

invisible...

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait.. I already am..

GITARA..

Bakit pa kailangan magbihis
Sayang din naman ang porma
Lagi na namang may sisingit
Sa twing' tayo'y magkasama
Bakit pa kailangan ng rosas
Kung marami naman ang
Mag-aalay sa'yo
Uupo na lang at aawit
Maghihintay ng pagkakataon
Hahayaan na lang silang

Magkandarapa na manligaw sa'yo
Idadaan na lang kita
Sa awitin kong ito
Sabay ang tugtog ng.... gitara
Idadaan na lang.... sa gitara

Mapapagod lang sa kakatingin
Kung marami namang nakaharang
Aawit na lang at magpaparinig
ng lahat ng aking nadarama
Pagbibigyan na lang silang

-ayan.. nagpabili na ko ng gitara.. para sasabayan ko na lang ng tugtog ang mga kanta mo.. mga kanta ko sayo.. idadaan ko na lang sa gitara... ^_^

broken hearts and broken minds..?

nyar.. ayan.. haha.. nabaliw kami ni elise kanina.. haha.. lalo na xa.. di kasi dumating si 'kuya'.. ayan tuloy.. emosyon.. malungkot si elise.. tas ako naman.. haha.. basta.. alam ko na sasabihin nila saken.. "the past is coming to haunt you" nyahaha.. si elise, randell at meeko lang makakarelate.. haha.. or baka di rin nila amgets.. hehe.. si PAST!! haha.. =p

nyways.. ayun.. himig concert bukas.. nood sana mga tao.. ushers kami.. weehee.. kakanta si jam ng a whole new world.. hahahahahahaha..

ahm.. la na ko masabi.. bye bye..





~ivy.hot~

ironic

nyaha.. naaka ironic na yung previous post ko ay entitled happy.. tas yung next ay malungkot na malungkot ako..

so anong namgyari? hmm.. pumasok ako eh.. la naman magawa sa house.. so ayun.. sa school.. nagshoot sila nung play.. andun ako and gla and clar.. we watched the group.. tas ayus naman.. bonding.. masaya nga eh.. nyahaha.. tas si jam at duane, nag jackstones.. haha.. tas ang galing ni jam.. tas ang baba ng physics achievement ko.. la akong na-achieve.. haha..

tas ayun.. hindi ako masaya talaga.. kagabi lang.. ayos naman ako.. tas ngayon.. hindi talga.. haha..

nagpunta kaming UP tas nagikot kami.. pumuntong vinzons hall tas kalayaan residence hall... tas ayun.. umuwi.. ang lungkot lungkot ko.. biglaan eh.. ewan ko ba.. baka bumigay na talga yung puso ko.. haha.. hindi na kinaya.. hay nako.. oo hindi na nga kinaya.. masyado na daw masakit.. haha.. tas nung mag-iosa na alng ako.. kasi naghiwalay na kami ni cha.. so0o0o0brang naiiyak na ko.. hindi pa naman ako magaling magpigil ng pagtulo ng luha.. hay nako.. pero nakaya ko naman.. umabot ako sa bahay.. tas ayun.. buti nakapag-bless pa ko sa parents ko.. tas pumasok ako sa kwarto.. sumunod pala yung kapatid ko.. andun kasi friends nya.. hiniram yung pic ni noel kasi crush nya.. >.< haha..

tas buti na lang di ko binuksan yung ilaw agad.. kasi baka nakita niya yung mga luha ko.. buti na lang naiabot ko agad yung album at nakatalikod ako sa kanya.. tas umalis na siya.. tas nagulat din ako sa sarili ko kasi so0o0brang bumuhos na lang yung luha.. tas so00o0o0o0o00o0o0obrang iyak na ko ng iyak.. hinayaan ko na yung sarili ko.. haha.. la naman makakakita eh......... magisa naman ako.. antagal tagal.. parang hindi na titigil yung mga luha.. pero buti na lang.. tumigil na.. haha..

tas nung hindi na halata, lumabas na ko ng room.. nagbihis.. tas pumunta na dito.. sa aking escape hole.. nakikinig ako ngayon ng "no ordinary love".. mymp.. mahal na mahal ko yun.. kahit ganun.. kahit ganito.. kahit wala lang.. kahit mahirap.. kahit malinaw na.. kahit masakit.. kahit SOBRANG SAKIT.. haha.. kahit wala na siya..........

"forgive my mind, it can't forget how life began when we met.. forgive my soul, it still sees that we're meant to be.. forgive my feelings that i just can't kill.. forgive my heart.. it loves you still.."





sorry ah.. sana lang talaga.. bumalik ka na sa dati.. nyahaha.. o bka ganyan ka naman talga dati? pero hindi eh.. di ka naman masama saken dati eh.. ='(

no ordinary love..

This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again
With your extraordinary love

From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that i just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that i adore
Can't we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'cause it feels so good to me

Chorus:
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again
With your extraordinary love

-nyar.. nag eemote na naman ako.. it's starting to sink in na kasi.. nyahaha.. all the things that you're doing.. alam mo bang hindi mo naman kailangan maging mean para makalimutan kita.. it doesn't pacify the pain.. makes the pain more unbearable pa nga eh.. akala mo ba pag naging masama ka i will hate you na? hindi nga eh.. nasasaktan ako.. pero ayun.. kaw na nga rin nagsabi eh.. tanga nga ako di ba? haha.. tas baka maiinis ka na naman kasi nageemote na naman ako.. nyahahaha.. ewan.. naiisip ko na rin yung tinanong sakin ng isang tao.. bakit ko nga ba pinapahirapan ang sarili ko?
























































































eh kasi mahal kita.. >_<

happy..

nyahaha.. ewan.. kung pagbabasehan ang ilang mga bagay na nangyari today, i shouldn't have typed the word happy for this post's title kasi hindi dapat ako masaya.. that is, kung normal ako ngayon.. kaso hindi nga naman normal ang mga taong.. haha.. in love.. nyar.. wahaha..

so ayun.. haha.. una, pumunta akong school.. and so everyone was busy with their pinoy and english plays and talent shows.. tas nakakatuwa si jonathan kasi f na f nya ang pagiging boy band memeber.. and that was cute!!! ^_^

tas ayun, lumabas kami ni elise.. sm.. duh.. as always.. nyahaha.. tas nasa synergy lang kami hanggang dumating si meeko.. tas we played na and all.. tas dapat hahabol si jam ng mga 3 pm.. pero mga 430 na ata siya dumating.. tas mejo bad trip pa ata siya.. hmmm.. pero ayun.. nag dance maniax na sila.. tapos kumanta kami.. tas dance maniax ulet sila.. tas kanta ulet.. daming kinanta.. hehe.. masaya.. pero walang pic.. haha.. ayus lang..

tas sila meeko.. nag fit na naman ng shirts.. hehe.. tas pareho sila ni jam ng gusto.. haha.. mag uunahan sila bumili..

ayan.. tas ngayon.. andito ako ulet.. inaantok na pero nagbablog pa.. at kinukulit si zikzik.. hehe.. bye bye..

~ivy.hot~

diSTRESS..

HMMP!!! ayan.. andito na naman ako sa lugar na nagiging escape hole ko tuwing ayoko magstay sa bahay.. haha.. convinient.. pwede ako dito matulog kung gusto ko.. haha.. oh well.. ah basta.. one thing i learned from tonight, kung pinapagalitan ka na, don't bother explaining your side na lang.. sayang yjng effort eh.. haha.. madalas kasi parents don't listen.. kung ano nasa isip nila, final na yun.. naisip ko rin, dapat di na lang ako nagpilit.. haha.. mali rin ako.. IN A WAY.. HINDI TOTALLY HA.. !haha.. =p

ayan.. so0o0brang favorite ko na ang just the girl at narda.. as in sobra.. kanina ko pa siya pinapakinggan.. haha.. astig yung song.. ganda ganda.. hehe.. ^_^

ay nagpapaic kami tas ang saya.. pretty pics.. wahaha.. galing ni kuya close-up.. nyahaha.. ano pa ba? hmm.. ay may little adventure kami ni meeko.. eh kasi may isang tao kaming tinakasan kanina.. nyahaha.. lumabas pa kami nung place tas nung nakapasok na kami, pagod na kami pero sira yung escalator so kinailangan naming mag stairs.. nyar.. haha.. hmm.. tas ayun.. siusumpa ko siya.. haha.. dahil napagod ako.. pero kanina lang yun.. forgiven na siya.. nyahaha.. oi elise.. in lab ka na naman.. hmm.. di naman kyut yun.. nyahaha.. pero sige.. love mo naman eh.. hehe..

tinatamad na ko mag-type.. pero lam nyo ba? in love na talaga ako.. wahhahaha.. nyak.. oo.. kasi soo0o0o0brang happy ako eh.. tas ayos lang saken kahit anong nangyayari.. kahit nga ata magpakasal siya eh.. nyahaha.. kasi yun yung natutunan ko.. haha.. mas magiging masaya ka kung masaya yung mahal mo.. yun yung totoong love.. kaya hindi na ko malulungkot ulet.. dahil alam ko na kung nao ang totoong love at hindi na ko maaapektuhan ng mga panglilito ng love.. nyar.. parang yung sa "pagibig" nyahaha..

ayann.. tinatamad na talga ako.. hhaha..

~ivy.hot~

wahaha..

gumagawa akong eng ngayon.. wahaha.. im happy.. wanna know why?

kasi just now.. haha. i just understood the confusing parts of love.. wahaha..

tas magdadala kami ni elsie ng stuff tomorrow for overnyt.. wahaha.. pero wala pa kaming tutulugan.. nyahahahah.. wahahhahaha..

just the girl..

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

-ganda ng song!! supra! ^_^

true!!!!

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

- weeeeeeeeee... i am so very much in love.. hahahaha.. masaya kahit wala lang.. ewan.. haha.. nakakatawa.. naliwanagan na kasi ako.. just now.. naintindihanko na!!!! wahaha.. not confused anymore..^_^

after overnight..

nyahaha.. kakauwi lang from sm.. galing sa bahay ni noel..

scary yung white noise.. i mean, nakkagulat siya.. nyahaha.. tapos ahm, american pie 4.. haha.. funny.. eww.. and sweet.. napakainosente ko.. di ko nagets yung isang scene dun.. akala ko parang he was secretly practicing the instrument para sa band.. tas yun pala....... waaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. hahahahahaha..

AYUN.. tapos mga 3 na ata kami nagstop manuod.. i mean.. sila pala.. kasi ako natulog na ko pero nagising ako nung pinatay na yung tv.. nyahaha.. tas di pa kami maktulog kaya nagkwentuhan kami.. tungkol sa ibat ibang bagay.. haha.. kawawa si meeko at jam kasi inaantok na talga sila tas maingay kami.. haha.. tas tabi kami ni mei.. kami yung may pinaka maluwag na space.. thought its not s very maluwag at all.. pro nakatulog talaga kami ni mei.. haha.. tas si randell asa dulo nung bed.. muntik xa malglag kay mei tas natatakot siya kay mei.. nyahaha..ansya talga mag overnyt.. haha.. tas we went tosm agen.. PICTURE!!! tas bumili kami ng barkada album.. nyahahha..

tas.. kahapon sa sm.. akala ko nakita ko si PETER!!! actually, hinid akala.. feel na feel ko talagang siya yun.. kaso di ko talga tiningnan ng maayos kasi natatakot akong baka siya nga.. haha.. ewan ko kung bakit.. lalala.. tas astig kasi nakaupo siya sa guitar place sa harap ng dep store tapos sakto pagdaan namin.. tinutugtog niya yung narda!!!!!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaah.. destiny? oo.. haha.. anlabo.. sabi ko na nga kila mei kagabi.. naisip ko kasi last tuesday na dapat b4 i get married, makita o ulit yung guys na naging special saken para malaman ko kung wla na talga akong feelings for them.. pra pag may family na ko, wala nang makakasira.. dapat yung fiancee ko ganun din.. di ba? wahaha.. tas so0o0oo0brang bonding kami kagabi.. ai kaninang umaga pala.. mga 3 or 4 ata.. haha.. andami naming napagusapan.. wee.. ansya..

friends!!!! meeko, elise, jam, at mei!!! weeehee.. salamat sa friendship.. soo0o0brang dapat sa college bonding pa rin tayo... wootwoot.. sooo00o0o0obrang i enjoy every moment i spend with you guys!!! wahahaha.. mamimiss ko kayo.. di tayo magkikita.. bukas.. nyahhahaha.. haha..

cge.. inaantok na ko.. babye..

~ivy.hot~

cramming for econ..

grabe.. hmm.. ayun.. shet.. econ mag na tomorrow.. amf talga.. andami daming ginagwa..

haha.. kakaasar.. alam nyo bang naiinis ako sa isang tao.. dahil masama talga siya.. kung kayo ako, i think you'll feel the same..pero slight lang naman.. lam ko namang ganun yun.. pabago bago.. nyahahaha..

nyways, inaanyok na ko pero may econ thing pa.. tas ayun.. may chem perio pa.. at eepal pa yung str.. waaaaah.. tas gusto ko sana mag overnyt bukas kaso walang nakaplan for tomorrow kasi lahat ng tao nakafocus sa econ mag.. huhuhuhu.. ayun.. tas baka la pa pasok next week kasi wala lang.. ayaw lang ng school.. argsh.. sayang naman.. pero sana.. sana.. sana.. matuloy yung 3 days 2 nights ng photon.. waaaaaaaah.. sana sana sana!!! =p

mmm.. eh leo at camille.. miss na miss ko na.. pero sige.. ok ok.. ahm.. di ako sasama sa party bukas.. cla fred, gj, and the other dota boys pupunta eh.. tas mga kikay girls, astig girls.. everybody.. buong batch.. cge.. hmm.. la siguro ako magagawa dun.. eh kasi i dont drink.. so anong sense? eh yun lang naman ginagawa ng mga tao.. and besides, im really not in the mood for partying.. nyahahaha.. kaya yun.. pass na lang muna.. =p

cge na.. sana matapos namin yung econ.. sana.. wee.. ^_^ salamat kay charisse anne de leon na naglelayout ng mag namin.. at sa magiting naming editor.. at sa makulit na cartoonist (ahem ruth), sa joke time sports writer na si nani, saken dahil magaling ako.. at malaki ang sakripisyo ko para sa mag.. biruin nyo, kahihiyan yun noh.. haha.. nyahahahaha.. at sa iba pang group mates.. salamat sa articles.. go go go group 3!!! hehe..

ayan..

~ivy.hot~

hmm..

ayan.. tapos na naman ang isang araw.. marami na rin palang laman ang blog na to.. andami dami na pala..

salamat sa blog.. na handang makinig saken.. at pwedeng pagsabihan ng mga nararamdaman ko.. kasi parang ngayon.. walang gustong makinig.. parang.. wala muna ako.. hehe.. ^_^

hmmm.. miss na miss ko na sila.. soo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0braAAAAAAaaaaAAAA... hahahahahahahhahaha.. pero di nga.. sooo0o0o0o0bra talaga.. naiiyak na nga ako eh..

hmm.. baka tama sila camille at leo.. baka nga bumalik lang sa dati.. feeling ko lang abnormal kasi baka daw nasanay lang ako na ganun.. ahaha.. baka nga.. siguro.. sana.. haha..

yey.. olin.. astig naman..ang saya mo.. ako.. eto.. wala.. haha.. looking forward to college but not to graduating.. no kaya mngayyari sa 4th quarter grades ko..? shet.. feeling ko bababa lahat.. dami kasi ginagawa ngayong perio week.. di ako makapag-aral.. >_<

hay..

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic... don't you think
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
Well, isn't this nice
And Isn't this ironic ... don't you think?
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's oka and everythings going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think evertyhing's gone wrong and everthing blows up
In your face
A traffic jAM when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like 10,000 spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think
A little too ironic.. and yeah I really do think...
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
And life has a funny way of helping you out
Helping you out...

hay.. life.. hay layf. hai.. layyyph..