TO YOU MY FAIR MESSENGER..

i don't know... i am supposed to be celebrating this day.. we finally, after four long years, grduated from high school.. yet, a bigger part of me feels sad.. when wil i see you again? i hope soon.. soon enough to save me form the regrets of not even being able to say goodbye.. but God knows i tried.. i know He saw me when i went back to look for you, to steal just a glance before we part.. i even made an excuse of needing to give somthing back to Leo just to have a few minutes to stay and look for you.. ( well, my excuse was partly tru naman coz i really needed to give something back to leo but i was blindly looking for him coz i was thinking about you.. >.<) i went back.. i looked for you! but you were not there.. to make matters more unbearable for a cry baby like me, one of the songs that really reminds me of you was playing.. i lost myself in thoughts of how i began to lvoe you.. and you know what? it really hurts to have a lot of memories to recall and knowing too that they will never happen again.. i was alone.. i looked around and saw a lo of people yet the one that i ws looking for was not around.. then i just found myself sobbing like a little girl.. tears welled up in my eyes.. adrop or two rolled down my cheeks before i was able to pull myself back together and head on to where my parents were waiting.. then i saw Leo, i gave him something and then asked if he saw you.. he said you're at the dorm.. then i began to cry.. i told him im scared i might not see you again. he told me to go talk to you. i said i don't wantto.. not because i really on't want to but maybe because i'm scared.. and so i can't.. i told him to tell you to take care and that im gonna miss you a lot.. then i said "basta.. sabihin mo sa kanya lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.." haha.. and tears came pouring out again.. "puntahan mo na kasi.. pero cge, take care dear.. i will tel him.." and after that, i took na the steps that took me away.. away form pisay.. away from you.......

FAIR MESSENGER, i hope i see you again.. loving you when you already love someone else is one thing, a thing that through time, i have learned to accept ad understand but loving you so much and letting you walk away without even sying something like "bye" when i had the chance is something else.. i hope i didn't make the biggest mistake of my life when i walked away, leaving the chances of letting you know how much i love you behind.. >.<