Reminisce..

yan.. i had just looked upon my "sent messages" in friendster.. there were only two.. one for that special someone last year that i think is going through the muling ibalik drama of his life.. the other one was sent to marianne.. and i really wish i just didn't open that one..

oh, cool lang kayo..

the message was about peter kc.. yeah.. when you really think it's time to move on then there comes all the things and memories to haunt you and pull you back.. the thought of me and him talking just won't get out of my mind.. and you felt like really hating yoursefl because of reading this statement:

"hindi ko yun gagawin sayo.. maxado akongmabait para gawin sayo yun"

and looks below it to find this:

*sinabi nya yun nung sinabi ko na "sorry na.. kung gusto mo gawin mo kung ano yung ginawa ko sayo"

waaah.. and you really feel this guilt........ argssssshhhhh.. if i really did know that he's gonna be gone.. haaaaaaaaay......... i just miss him so much......... and God knows how sorry i am..

peter, though not all people look at him without much respect, is someone really important to me.. i think i reall y can't forget him na nga eh.. and you know, these sort of things are really embarassing to publish.. but at least, this is to equalize the humiliation i've caused.. argsh..

till my next post!ü